HAPPY NEW YEARS!

Happy New Years (in 1 hour for me) to everyone! <3 My New Years Resolution is to keep on doing well in school (so I can go to a JB concert, lol) and stop biting my nails. I don't like to set big goals for myself if I know I won't accomplish it. Bleh, I watched the Dick Clark's New Years show Miley was horrible. She was trying WAY too hard and a lot of it was out of tune. I kept on cringing, literally. The boyyss (JB) were alright. Nick sounded great, Joe sounded sick! :[ Put both of them together = ughh. They lowered their (JB's) dang microphone sound. WTF? All I could hear was Miley's nasally voice ugh. My dad was complaining to turn it off. lol My moom walked in and started to talk to me about the New Year, how I need to finish it off well. I really dread those "grades lectures" because I feel guilty whenever she talks to me about it. :[ She was like, "What is your forecast on your grades" and quite frankly, I don't know. I finally think that I won't be getting an A in English. Hopefully I'll get A's in the other classes (other than Euro). If I got a decent grade on that essay, I would have had an A in English. ='( Hope everything goes as planned.

Oh my goodness, there was this really cute jacket at Macy's that I really want. 70 bucks though. :[ More than a JB concert. Clothes vs JB, I would choose a concert. Haha
But the jacket is soooooo cute. I was trying it on and this lady was all like, "That is so adorable" Bahaha
But yeah..
Love, Kelsey

mhm

I adore babies. They're so cute and chubby. :D

So i calmed down about the imdbJB thing, but I'm still not going to go on. This will seriously torture me because imdb was my break time from homework. bahaha and dude seriously. myyspace GG is awesome. ;] I don't know who he/she is, but way better than the imdb GG. Tomorrow I get to go to my friend's house and her neice is coming over. OH. MY. GOODNESS. Her niece is (one of) the cutest babies I have EVER seeen!! So I am veryyyy excited. Woo! And we're watching Mean Girls and eating all the junk food imaginable. Today I went to the mall with my sister and mom and bought skinny jeans. And now I officially know that my legs are short because I had to buy size 0 short. Well, in reality, my legs are normal length. I wish they were long, like Miley's. LOL But I can't complain because there are some people with really really short legs. How depressing. =/ My mom and sister got mad at me because I went in a different store and I lost them for 30 min. It wasn't really my fault.. Because my sister looked in the store I was in and she didn't "find" me. Geez, I was where the magazine section was (I was in Borders, btw). -_- Hmm. Also, my sister went crazy right now because she is officially starting her House MD Marathon. I have to admit, that is a pretty good series. she is OBSESSED with Hugh Laurie like how I'm obsessed with the Jonas Brothers. ;] Except.. I guess.. Hugh Laurie is of high caliber (education and smart-wise). lol Okay.. I'm too scared to ask my mom if I can go to this concert. I have...13 days? T_T great, i doubt im going. i just have to wait until jan 3.


:] i like to day dream.
makes me all giddy and happy.
dreaming about something impossible is nice.
at least i know that reality is cruel.
hahahahaha

IMDBjb

Not going to post there anymore, but I'm still going to go on to find out updated JB news.
Those girls tire me.
You can't even say your opinion without being internet-slapped! Sheesh.
I only liked a couple girls on there also.
The other ones are major perverts and just want to get into JB's pantts. =|

I was in such a bad mood when there was a fight brewing on the imdb boards because I didn't believe Gossip Girl (the JB gossip girl on imdb) was real and most of the girls were, "blahhh" because they worship her.
Wow

Good thing I have family. They made me feel better. -_-

...

Sometimes dreaming about something you can never get is rather depressing.
Lol, Paulina, although we dream
we KNOW it'll never happen.
:]
2/189787348878457874585787586784408695
thats our chance.

Hellooo fashion!

I hate it when my favorite store updates on its new "clothing line" because: 1. I want so many things. 2. I can only wish on getting 1/4 of the things I want. 3. I'm not rich. Sometimes I wish I was rich so I could buy anything I wanted. From clothes to shoes to jewelry. :[ But nooo. Man. I should have never gone online and checked the website. And they have these flats I want but they're selling it only online but my mom doesn't like to buy things online! NOOO. :'[ And GAP had really cute black flats but they were freaking 40 dollars. To me = oh helll no, way too expensive. rich person = thats cheap!

I just wish I won a 1,000 dollar shopping spree. Seriously.
Hahaha -_-

OH, and recap of my Christmas:
Christmas Eve, me and my family ate at our favorite MExican restaurant and it was very fun. This ffamily next to us were very festive.. Taking pictures, talking loudly, and drinking their specialized drinks.
Me? Well, I just ordered plain old water. :)
What I got for Christmas: I didn't ask for anything, but my mom got me a sweater from GAP, earrings and a hello kitty robe and pajama pants. SO CUTE! <3 I don't expect much so my friends were listing what they got, and all I said was, "I just got 3 things." Woops, I made them feel spoiled. haha
Speaking of fashion, it reminds me of Devil Wears Prada. There was one outfit that Anne Hathaway wore that made my jaw drop. I wanted that coat SO bad. Blahh. Now that movie makes me want to buy designer clothes soooo bad.
Ha, in my dreams.

Speaking of DREAMS, (lol) ticketmaster posted that JB will be performing in LA, CA and I was YAY YAY YA, all happy. Date: February 2. Oh poop. I already bought the tickets to the (now dumb in my mind) 3D hannah/jb movie thing. i wish i could refund and go to the concert. bc i doubt my mom will say yes. and jan 31 = end of the semester. if my grades arent good, my mom will definitely say no. :[

I wish I had a friend who loved JB the way I do, then we could go to concerts together.
But that's not possible. =/

oh my gosh.

this made my day when my friend sent me this

friend: my sister was like staring at u when u were making ur muffins and she was talking to my dad after adn she was like "Kelsey is very naturally pretty and shes sooo cute. The other two girls (jasmin and lea) are both really pretty too but kelsey isnt as fancy as they are and shes still pretty"

That is soooo sweet!
Yeah Lea and Jasmin are EXTREMELY pretty
but I'm cute and naturally pretty.
BEAT THAT PUNK.
bahaha just kidding. :]
ive never had low self esteem so pretty girls like lea and jasmin usually dont get to me.
but if a guy is talking about how pretty/hot they are to ME, im like, "why are you telling me this?"
i only get annoyed, but not very jealous.
but if i do get jealous, it seriously blows off in a few hours because everyone has their own insecurities.
just make life the best of what you have.

Man..

I had SO much fun yesterday! I love Christmas parties like those. :]
At the end, it was me, Mary, Sinh, Huy and Christine and once I left I hugged everyone except Christine. It was really awkward. Throughout the party, she kept on trying to talk to me but I just ignored her. =/
But anyways..
I should stop sleeping in because my eyes hurt like HECK! Blahh.
I'm too lazy to get up though. haha
Well I hope everyone is having a great Christmas Eve! =)

And the gift I got from my Secret Santa is lovely. I love these sweats now. hahaha

OH AND BTW, I got 103.1% on my AP Biology midterm!
YESSS! :D Living in Bio for a week afterschool payed off! Hahahaha

Also, IMDB JB is getting on my nerves. The girls on there are so immature. =/
Can't they stop talking about how hot JB are, about their private parts, and writing about M rated stories about JB?
I mean, grow UP.

Love,
Kelsey

HALLELUJAH!

OH. MY. GOODNESS. Winter break has started! (Officially on Monday) And to top it off, I DID WELL ON ALL MY TESTS AND QUIZZES ON THURS AND FRI. Thank God, seriously. :] All that praying I did payed off (not to mention all the studying) ;]] Haha, I'm listening to JB 20 on 20 Week 5 (?) right now and they seriously brighten up my day. lol Also, I hate ants with a passion. More than spiders. I can never keep candy in my study room because they come marching in. D: Hmm, Paulina did you make a new account? You know how I was saying I would make you another present? Well I'm not completely sure about it. haha And wtf? I'll be in MAMMOTH when JB announces the tour dates! ARGHH. lol

I was going to say something but I forgot.
So byeee! :]

:]

I mailed.. Well my mom mailed Paulina's Christmas card & present today!
WOOOOO! Haha.
okay, that's all I wanted to say and now I need to study for Euro -sigh-
catherine was talking to me about euro and i was like, huh?
i need to read!!!

Ah

So I am full with cookies I baked (unfortunately they were already cut and stuff. I want to make homemade ones!) and before that I had another one of those i-cant-breathe-because-im-laughing-so-hard moments. Ever since a month ago, I kind of feel happier? I've had those i-cant-breathe-because-im-laughing-so-hard moments like 4 times this whole month and last month. I kind of feel like I'm free.. Like a whole pound of rocks has fallen from my body. Nothing has changed really, but I have gotten close to a selective couple of friends and of course my family. I'm actually going to be really sad when my sister leaves for college. She's the character in the house.. The crazy character. And in Bio after school today, I was talking to Abi about friends. Like Huy said, our group is vaporizing (cough1984cough). I am a bit jealous of my sister because she has 3 best friends. They are so close, they have the same interests, they do everything together. Sometimes smaller is better. And it's not like they seclude themselves from everyone else, it's just they're really close. I want that, but I don't think that will happne since I'm a sophmore. annika had the same friends/best friends since 7th grade. =/ Also, I wonder why kids ruin their lives with regrets. Not small ones, big ones. I am suprised that girls (some guys) believe that they love their couple. Yeah there may be a few couples that are madly in love, but how long will that last? We don't know what love is. Love isn't just getting butterflies in your stomach. Love has a whole different meaning to it, words can't even describe it. And doing something dumb because you think you"love" your boyfriend or girlfriend is just plain dumb. In highschool, think about yourself (not talking about friends; giving is above all!) when it comes to relationships. And just take the time to think. That's the most important of all. I still don't know what I'm getting my family for Christmas.. And my mom is driving me insane with the presents under the tree. She's like, "open it! wait don't open it!" haha. Judy and Rachel are coming over on Christmas. Man, I haven't seen them in AGES. I can't wait to play with them and talk to them about their lives (yeah, one is 5 and one is in 6th grade. lol) I hope I end this week nicely because I want this winter break to be wonderful. With my family and with friends. OH which reminds me of the group Mary, Sam, and I made. ;] I love to keep secrets from people. Muahaha We still need to figure some stuff out, but what our main purpose is is fantastic. (: Also, I'm trying to cut down on my complaining. I absolutely HATE when people complain (ocassional is fine, but incessant is beyond irking). Of course I complain, who doesn't? But I don't think I should complain like, "I don't have enough clothes.." blah blah blah. I have enough clothes. Although most of them are hand-me-downs, I should be thankful for what I have. And it's sad.. This New Years will be spent without my grandpa. In fact, I don't even think we're going to be celebrating New Yearrs with my dad's side. I'm not sad that I'm not getting anymore money. It's just my grandpa was the tie to my dad's side. Now it's.. broken.

love,
kelsey.

..i wish they went to our school.

LAST WEEK

OF SCHOOL FOR THE YEAR!
WOO, PARTY! Bahaha.
This week is going to be HECTIC. I have an AP Euro test on Thursday, an AP Bio midterm on Friday, a Math quiz on Friday, and a bunch of other junk.
I hope I do well on these tests/quizzes to make my vacation nice.
But writing in this blogging system isn't necessarily helping me.. Lol
My mom recently just walked into the study room and was like, "Kelsey I know you can do it. Just picture yourself being one of the many valedictorians in 2 years."
And when she said that, I was wondering if she was talking to my dad about my grades..
Eh, besides the point.
I need to go back to "studying" for Euro. Byebye!

Paulina

Hey there Paulina
What's it like in Irvine City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Irvine Spectrum can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Paulina
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Paulina
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll go to a Jonas Brother concert
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Paulina
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them loves the jonas brothers
paulina I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there paulina
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there paulina here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

Oh oh
OOOoohhhh
Oh oh
Ooooooohhhhh
Oh Oh
OOOoohhhh
OOOOooohhhhh
Oh Oh

You'll have a suprise sent to you besides the one in the mail, pauweiner. :]<3>

I really

Need to change my blogging system.
Hahaha, it's ALL about grades!
:]]

I really like this picture to the left
Maybe because it hides my face?
Bahahaha, just kidding.
I don't have low self esteem like that. (:

yeah...

Agenda: Sunday

1. Read English (2 hours)

2. TIME Project (2 hours)

3. ½ of Biology homework (.5 hours)

4. Ask dad for Math (.5 hours)

5. Edit Essay (3.5 hours)

6. Study Euro (2.5 hours)

Eeep. ><

<- This is what I don't get enough of. Haha

Well tomorrow is the last day of the week.. 4 more weeks to go. D: I took the English vocab test today and it was so weird/hard. Hopefully I got a 80% T_T This ruins my get-100%-on-all-assignments-plan. Man, I don't know if I can raise my English grade in time. >< Math, I need to raise it 340 points to get an A so I need to work work work! Intense studying and stuff. D: I still have a B+ in Spanish -_- Gosh, why isn't it raising up?! I got 100% on my last two quizzes so I hope he inputted that in..

New tour dates for JB?
Ohhh yess.
Hopefully they come to LA/Anaheim.
Maybe at the Verizon Amphitheatre near my house.
That would be amazing. Hahaha

-cries-

:[
I am so screwed..
I need to talk to my Math teacher to ask him what I need to get on my next quiz, test and final.
Because I need this A..
I can't believe I got a 75% on my last test.. I thought I did well.
I'M GOING TO GE 100% ON THE NEXT TEST,
I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE.

I was..

Seriously about to pee in my pants when I checked my grades because Powers said he was going to updated the grades with the math test on it. Turns out he hasn't.. And I'm going to stop checking like every 10 minutes. I don't even want to check tomorrow. ><
If I get a B on this test I'll cry.
Then I would need to get like a 96% on the next test.
And a 95% on the final (190/200).
EEEEEK!! I'm determined though. I'll do it..
I hope that getting high A's like that will raise my grade up to an A.. ><>

I talk about grades WAY too much.


And.. I still need to buy Paulina's x-mas gift. LOL

Worried about grades.. AGAIN.

So since I have such bad grades, I've been stressing out and all that jazz way too much. I went to check my English grade and it's a 77.3%.. D: I was so happy I raised it 4% but actually, when I looked at the things she put in, it was 3 weeks worth of stuff.. So each week would only raise up like 1%. This is the time I started to panic. We only have 5 weeks left and 5% will only raise my grade 82%!!! WHAT NO WAY. T_T
Well, my Bio grade is a B right now so I only have 3 C's.. ><
I'm hoping English homework will raise 2% each week.
But I think that's asking for too much.
I hate that she gave me 0/100 on my essay. T_T
I would have had an A.
I'm so depressed. My sister was right; Christmas time during the sophmore year is so depressing. :[

I wish I was a bird, so I could fly away from all this.

UGH.

The past few days I've been only getting like 6 hours of sleep and I usually get like 8 or 9.. XD I am SO stressed out, I literally think I'm going to get a white/gray hair soon. So I took my math test today. I was the 2nd one to finish and I am now regretting turning it in so early. Mr. Powers let me staple all the tests and I looked at the students' answers and I'm like, "Oh great.." I know for sure I got -2 (8 points) and 2 points off on the other part. Hopefully that's it because I NEED AN A ON THIS TEST, and I told my mom I think I got an A! And I really need the A for the class. :[ Next test, I need to get like 98% and I am not joking. =| -sigh- Progress reports came today as I suspected and I made sure my mom hid it from my dad. (reasons, good reasons for hiding it from my dad).. My mom has been very understanding about my grades (but still expects me to get all A's) and I just started to cry in the car. It's so hard for me and whenever I think of my grades now, I feel like crying. Aerobics and Orch I need to maintain my A. Spanish, AP Bio is easy to raise up. English is semi-easy to raise up. Math and AP Euro.. I need to work my butt off in that class. Seriously.. And I haven't gone on MS and stuff so it's all good. :] Wierd that Christine called me saying I left my eraser but it's in my pencil case? Awkwarddd.

Yeah, unfortunately I don't have any new and exciting news. The next 5 weeks is going to be rough. And since Christine is still hanging out with us, I feel awkward around her so I just don't even talk to my other friends. :(

=/

So today is Wednesday, but it feels like Thursday. Wednesdays are alright, I guess they're better than Tuesdays and Thursdays? But I had tutoring today and it is always uplifting to help someone figure out a problem in Math or something like that.
So, yesterday basically all my teachers updated my grades and I have:
A's in Aerobics, Orch, and Spanish (Spanish is a B+ right now because I need to make up a quiz)
C's in Math, Euro, Bio, and English.
=|
That's 4 C's right there.
My goals to obtain until the 6 weeks is over is:
3. Math = Get A's on the next two tests and drop my lowest test score. Get an A on the final (if that's humanely possible).
4. Euro = Get B's on the next two tests and do well (200%) on all the assignments so I can have a mid B so when the final comes around, the 85% will cushion the maybe bad final grade. ><
6. English = Practically get 100% on my weekly assignments, vocabulary tests, and high A's on other quizzes/test. And actually read 1984 so I know what's happening in the book.

The other classes (including Bio): I just need to maintain the grades. Biology, I just need to make up all my tests and bam. I have an A :P

My mom found out about my bad grades (I kind of had to lie a bit on my grades. Saying I have a B- in Euro and Math. She still freaked out and gave me a 10 minute lecture). She said that if I don't get A's on my 1st semester, I won't be able to go to anything JB related. -tear- Which makes me even more determined. I understand everything my mom is saying. Because of these grades (and the undeserving C in English), I am even more determined to reach my goals/objectives. And I want to beat Catherine on the AP Euro test so I can rub it in her face. :]

Friday I have a Math test and right now I am studying for it, so I hope I do really well. I get the chapter, I just need to refresh. Well, one of the lessons is a bit confusing but I'll figure it out.
And Thursday and Friday afterschool is staying in Bio to study for the upcoming midterm. Woo

Also, Bennett made the DJ's and essay due a week later, so that's a relief. I found important quotes from Pinkmonkey so all I have to do is put my reponses in my OWN words. No plagerism please.

I am really hoping that the progress report comes on Saturday because my dad won't be home on that day so I can check the mail. I don't want to tell my dad about it because he is the most disappointed out of my family when I receive bad grades and it makes my heart break. I just want to prove to myself and my family that I can do this. Hopefully I can. I am putting all my effort into this and hopefully it pays off. Please God! :[

And what makes matters worse is that the PSAT results are coming in (I have no idea when and it's driving me insane) and my friends have said they got college notices. I haven't gotten anything which means I did poorly. :'[ I think I might've put "no" for college noticies, but I don't remember. UGH.

Wish me luck because I need it.

Someone is 15 today!

So, I offically start my hiatus today and I still haven't asked Catherine to change my passwords for AIM, MS, and IMDB.
I think I'll just check IMDB for a bit. Kekekeke. :]]
Tomorrow is going to be so depressing. I'm going to get my Euro test, theses, and flashcards back and I have a really big timed essay tomorrow in English! I hate Tuesdays. >:[
I have to be emotionally prepared for tomorrow.
Today wasn't that bad actually. Good thing ONE day of this week was fine. -sigh-
I need to start my DJ's today too, but I have no CLUE what to write about! EEK!
And The Crucible extra credit is only 10 points. =/ Well it's better than nothing right?
I'm listening to "I'm a Survivor" by Destiny's Child and it's making me pumped to work harder. And the song from Legally Blonde? That's inspirational too!

I just finished Bio 1 hour early because I started a bit earlier than I intended.
This hiatus is actually working! :P This is my only procrastination I will be doing for the rest of the semester. I'm sorry Paulina! XD

Now I need to do English homework (and gather info for the essay), math homework, and read the big ugly Euro textbook.
The classes I don't like: Math (when I don't get something, other than that it is fine), AP Euro, and ENGLISH. Biology is fine because you can make up all your tests. =)

On the bright side: TODAY IS PAULINA'S BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY DARLING! <333

With love,
Kelseyy. :]
Your less beautiful friend. Hahahaha

OH BOY!

The next three weeks (before winter break) are going to be INTENSE. I need to work my ass off in ALL my classes, besides Aerobics and Orchestra. Haha This week: I need to do all my DJ's and my 5 page essay for English (and actually put effort into it.. I need an A on them). There is also a Math test I need to get an A on so I need to study a lot for that. Biology afterschool on Thursday and Friday. Including Tuesday mentoring and Wednesday Tutoring.. Next Week: I have an Orchestra concert on Wednesday and Tutoring on the same day. Also, mentoring on Tuesday. THEN, on Thursday and Friday I stay in Biology reviewing for the midterm. The week after that: Hugeeeee AP biology midterm I need to ace!! And in between those three weeks, I will have Spanish, Math, Euro, Biology, and English quizzes & tests. Oh boy.. I am going to be so stressed out. Maybe I'll even get my first gray hair? NOOO. :'[ I'll probably be staying up until 12:30 each night until winterbreak starts. Then winterbreak.. CHILL. (with homework and studying. woo -_-)

I am going on multiple hiatuses for AIM, Myspace, and IMDB.
:[ So I can pay attention more to studying and homework.
So that will definitely help me.
But I think I'm going to update my blogs each dayyyy if I can.
I think only one person reads this though. Haha

EDIT: Mr. Henson updated grades.. -_-
Once I make those 3 tests up, I will have a 86%-ish.
hopefully! Because each makeup test raises the grade 4% i believe, so 3 tests = 12%.
so then it will actually be an 87%!
And homework and the binder will raise it like 3%.
90%!! And then midterm..
That's the problem. I can have it drop my grade 3% to get an A. EEK!
I will pray every night. <3>

<3

I love my family: Mom, Dad, Sister.
Blood is thicker than water, no?
When you lose all your friends, your family is there to love and support you.
Forever. =)

me (10:05:00 PM): dude

me (10:05:05 PM): my dad just called me and said

me (10:05:10 PM): "hi kelsey. i love you! byeeee"

me (10:05:13 PM): and hes downstairs

Kayla (10:05:20 PM): awwwww

Kayla (10:05:24 PM): that's the cutest thing

Kayla (10:05:24 PM): awwww

me (10:05:21 PM): jsut bc he got a new cellphone

me (10:05:22 PM): XD

me (10:05:32 PM): i think he drank a little bit too much wine

Kayla (10:05:43 PM): HAHAHAH

me (10:05:47 PM): and he called my mom and said, "hi honey! i love you. -kissy sounds-"

me (10:05:59 PM): and then he calls annika and annika says, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!"

me (10:06:02 PM): hahahaha

me (10:06:04 PM): aww the love. :P

Kayla (10:06:31 PM): HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

me (10:07:36 PM): :]]

Oh boy.

Well, I am happy that I finished mostly everything on my agenda, but I (unfortunately) woke up late thing morning so now I'm left with 20 chapters of Something Wicked This Way Comes. I shouldn't even be writing. Tata.