Worried about grades.. AGAIN.

So since I have such bad grades, I've been stressing out and all that jazz way too much. I went to check my English grade and it's a 77.3%.. D: I was so happy I raised it 4% but actually, when I looked at the things she put in, it was 3 weeks worth of stuff.. So each week would only raise up like 1%. This is the time I started to panic. We only have 5 weeks left and 5% will only raise my grade 82%!!! WHAT NO WAY. T_T
Well, my Bio grade is a B right now so I only have 3 C's.. ><
I'm hoping English homework will raise 2% each week.
But I think that's asking for too much.
I hate that she gave me 0/100 on my essay. T_T
I would have had an A.
I'm so depressed. My sister was right; Christmas time during the sophmore year is so depressing. :[

I wish I was a bird, so I could fly away from all this.

UGH.

The past few days I've been only getting like 6 hours of sleep and I usually get like 8 or 9.. XD I am SO stressed out, I literally think I'm going to get a white/gray hair soon. So I took my math test today. I was the 2nd one to finish and I am now regretting turning it in so early. Mr. Powers let me staple all the tests and I looked at the students' answers and I'm like, "Oh great.." I know for sure I got -2 (8 points) and 2 points off on the other part. Hopefully that's it because I NEED AN A ON THIS TEST, and I told my mom I think I got an A! And I really need the A for the class. :[ Next test, I need to get like 98% and I am not joking. =| -sigh- Progress reports came today as I suspected and I made sure my mom hid it from my dad. (reasons, good reasons for hiding it from my dad).. My mom has been very understanding about my grades (but still expects me to get all A's) and I just started to cry in the car. It's so hard for me and whenever I think of my grades now, I feel like crying. Aerobics and Orch I need to maintain my A. Spanish, AP Bio is easy to raise up. English is semi-easy to raise up. Math and AP Euro.. I need to work my butt off in that class. Seriously.. And I haven't gone on MS and stuff so it's all good. :] Wierd that Christine called me saying I left my eraser but it's in my pencil case? Awkwarddd.

Yeah, unfortunately I don't have any new and exciting news. The next 5 weeks is going to be rough. And since Christine is still hanging out with us, I feel awkward around her so I just don't even talk to my other friends. :(

=/

So today is Wednesday, but it feels like Thursday. Wednesdays are alright, I guess they're better than Tuesdays and Thursdays? But I had tutoring today and it is always uplifting to help someone figure out a problem in Math or something like that.
So, yesterday basically all my teachers updated my grades and I have:
A's in Aerobics, Orch, and Spanish (Spanish is a B+ right now because I need to make up a quiz)
C's in Math, Euro, Bio, and English.
=|
That's 4 C's right there.
My goals to obtain until the 6 weeks is over is:
3. Math = Get A's on the next two tests and drop my lowest test score. Get an A on the final (if that's humanely possible).
4. Euro = Get B's on the next two tests and do well (200%) on all the assignments so I can have a mid B so when the final comes around, the 85% will cushion the maybe bad final grade. ><
6. English = Practically get 100% on my weekly assignments, vocabulary tests, and high A's on other quizzes/test. And actually read 1984 so I know what's happening in the book.

The other classes (including Bio): I just need to maintain the grades. Biology, I just need to make up all my tests and bam. I have an A :P

My mom found out about my bad grades (I kind of had to lie a bit on my grades. Saying I have a B- in Euro and Math. She still freaked out and gave me a 10 minute lecture). She said that if I don't get A's on my 1st semester, I won't be able to go to anything JB related. -tear- Which makes me even more determined. I understand everything my mom is saying. Because of these grades (and the undeserving C in English), I am even more determined to reach my goals/objectives. And I want to beat Catherine on the AP Euro test so I can rub it in her face. :]

Friday I have a Math test and right now I am studying for it, so I hope I do really well. I get the chapter, I just need to refresh. Well, one of the lessons is a bit confusing but I'll figure it out.
And Thursday and Friday afterschool is staying in Bio to study for the upcoming midterm. Woo

Also, Bennett made the DJ's and essay due a week later, so that's a relief. I found important quotes from Pinkmonkey so all I have to do is put my reponses in my OWN words. No plagerism please.

I am really hoping that the progress report comes on Saturday because my dad won't be home on that day so I can check the mail. I don't want to tell my dad about it because he is the most disappointed out of my family when I receive bad grades and it makes my heart break. I just want to prove to myself and my family that I can do this. Hopefully I can. I am putting all my effort into this and hopefully it pays off. Please God! :[

And what makes matters worse is that the PSAT results are coming in (I have no idea when and it's driving me insane) and my friends have said they got college notices. I haven't gotten anything which means I did poorly. :'[ I think I might've put "no" for college noticies, but I don't remember. UGH.

Wish me luck because I need it.

Someone is 15 today!

So, I offically start my hiatus today and I still haven't asked Catherine to change my passwords for AIM, MS, and IMDB.
I think I'll just check IMDB for a bit. Kekekeke. :]]
Tomorrow is going to be so depressing. I'm going to get my Euro test, theses, and flashcards back and I have a really big timed essay tomorrow in English! I hate Tuesdays. >:[
I have to be emotionally prepared for tomorrow.
Today wasn't that bad actually. Good thing ONE day of this week was fine. -sigh-
I need to start my DJ's today too, but I have no CLUE what to write about! EEK!
And The Crucible extra credit is only 10 points. =/ Well it's better than nothing right?
I'm listening to "I'm a Survivor" by Destiny's Child and it's making me pumped to work harder. And the song from Legally Blonde? That's inspirational too!

I just finished Bio 1 hour early because I started a bit earlier than I intended.
This hiatus is actually working! :P This is my only procrastination I will be doing for the rest of the semester. I'm sorry Paulina! XD

Now I need to do English homework (and gather info for the essay), math homework, and read the big ugly Euro textbook.
The classes I don't like: Math (when I don't get something, other than that it is fine), AP Euro, and ENGLISH. Biology is fine because you can make up all your tests. =)

On the bright side: TODAY IS PAULINA'S BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY DARLING! <333

With love,
Kelseyy. :]
Your less beautiful friend. Hahahaha

OH BOY!

The next three weeks (before winter break) are going to be INTENSE. I need to work my ass off in ALL my classes, besides Aerobics and Orchestra. Haha This week: I need to do all my DJ's and my 5 page essay for English (and actually put effort into it.. I need an A on them). There is also a Math test I need to get an A on so I need to study a lot for that. Biology afterschool on Thursday and Friday. Including Tuesday mentoring and Wednesday Tutoring.. Next Week: I have an Orchestra concert on Wednesday and Tutoring on the same day. Also, mentoring on Tuesday. THEN, on Thursday and Friday I stay in Biology reviewing for the midterm. The week after that: Hugeeeee AP biology midterm I need to ace!! And in between those three weeks, I will have Spanish, Math, Euro, Biology, and English quizzes & tests. Oh boy.. I am going to be so stressed out. Maybe I'll even get my first gray hair? NOOO. :'[ I'll probably be staying up until 12:30 each night until winterbreak starts. Then winterbreak.. CHILL. (with homework and studying. woo -_-)

I am going on multiple hiatuses for AIM, Myspace, and IMDB.
:[ So I can pay attention more to studying and homework.
So that will definitely help me.
But I think I'm going to update my blogs each dayyyy if I can.
I think only one person reads this though. Haha

EDIT: Mr. Henson updated grades.. -_-
Once I make those 3 tests up, I will have a 86%-ish.
hopefully! Because each makeup test raises the grade 4% i believe, so 3 tests = 12%.
so then it will actually be an 87%!
And homework and the binder will raise it like 3%.
90%!! And then midterm..
That's the problem. I can have it drop my grade 3% to get an A. EEK!
I will pray every night. <3>

<3

I love my family: Mom, Dad, Sister.
Blood is thicker than water, no?
When you lose all your friends, your family is there to love and support you.
Forever. =)

me (10:05:00 PM): dude

me (10:05:05 PM): my dad just called me and said

me (10:05:10 PM): "hi kelsey. i love you! byeeee"

me (10:05:13 PM): and hes downstairs

Kayla (10:05:20 PM): awwwww

Kayla (10:05:24 PM): that's the cutest thing

Kayla (10:05:24 PM): awwww

me (10:05:21 PM): jsut bc he got a new cellphone

me (10:05:22 PM): XD

me (10:05:32 PM): i think he drank a little bit too much wine

Kayla (10:05:43 PM): HAHAHAH

me (10:05:47 PM): and he called my mom and said, "hi honey! i love you. -kissy sounds-"

me (10:05:59 PM): and then he calls annika and annika says, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!"

me (10:06:02 PM): hahahaha

me (10:06:04 PM): aww the love. :P

Kayla (10:06:31 PM): HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

me (10:07:36 PM): :]]

Oh boy.

Well, I am happy that I finished mostly everything on my agenda, but I (unfortunately) woke up late thing morning so now I'm left with 20 chapters of Something Wicked This Way Comes. I shouldn't even be writing. Tata.